Home Sweet Apartment

Hey there Micaiah,

So papa and I have been living in our apartment since Tuesday.

And slowly but surely things are coming together.

It's weird to think that this will be your first home.

I'm excited to begin getting things ready for you.

But unfortunately that means purchases. 

And money. Which is stretched a little thin at the moment.

So things will progress more slowly.

But we will get there.

Plus how much could you really need at first? 

I'm still stressing about the pending status of my insurance.

I've called all of these number a dozen times over.

We start making payments for care next week

and have to have your whole birth paid for in 3 weeks.

YIKES.

Fortunately, if we do get insurance before you arrive we will be reimbursed.

But still it's a little scary.

Your daddy has a second interview scheduled for next week Monday.

Hopefully things go well in that department.

But as much as I gripe and groan about money...

We truly are well cared for.

I may not have many of my wants

but I have everything I need.

And that's all by God's goodness and grace.
Like this apartment.
Smaller than we had hoped for but we have a place to live.

He gave us this savings.

He provides for us daily.

Yes we need to be good stewards, but he knows our needs.

Things never have worked out for me in the way I plan them in my head

so I don't know why I always expect the Lord to follow MY plan.

For now I have to daily trust him.

I haven't been doing that so well lately.

When we spend money I panic.

I panic about the future that isn't promised to me.

Baby boy, I hope there comes a tomorrow

and a day after

and after that

till I meet you.

But even you aren't promised to me.

I'm fortunate to get to love and care for you today.

So I'm going to continue to ask Jesus for grace to live each day as it's own day.

And trust that he knows exactly what he is doing.

Grow Strong Baby

So Very Pregnant

Hey there Micaiah,

So today I feel very pregnant.

I'm going through the whole 1st trimester nausea again.

Minimal episode of upchucking this trimester though.

Still happens but fortunately not like before.

I took a two hour nap this afternoon.

Wow what a lump I am.

I could have slept even longer too!

You have learned this new trick

Where you pinch a nerve in my leg

And cause the entire thing to go numb.

Thats fun.

*walk walk walk, searing pain/numbness, immobility*

It is somewhat comical though.

I think people wonder about my sanity.

Things in STL are still moving slowly.

But my outlook on it all has been better this week.

Papa has a phone interview coming up.

Hopefully that turns into something.

Tomorrow marks one month since our move.

And Tuesday we get into our apartment.

Finally have some things figured out for your birth.

I will meet some of the midwives for the birthing center on Thursday.

I'm excited for you to arrive. 

And getting to the point of being 

SO OVER PREGNANCY.

I just want to meet you.

I want to see your little face.

Get to know your personality.

I love you...but I don't know you.

I'm ready to start getting to know you.

But come on your time.

And Grow Strong Micaiah James.

Patience, Cousins, and a Name.

Hey there baby boy,

Well papa and I have moved. 

And we continue to wait.

This move has been filled with fear for me.

Yet confirmation in the need to be here. 

But we still need a job for papa.

and a home.

and insurance.

and a lot of little things.

But we know God can provide.
And we will wait on his timing.
And continue to pursue the things we know he wants from us.

On Monday, we found out that your new cousin is a BOY!

Another boy in the Wiedeman clan!

You two will be buds I hope.

While we were in Chicago visiting family for the 4th
we decided to reveal your name.

We weren't going to let people know it...

but we love it and you.

And now the rest of the family knows.

So now we can call you by your name.

And in 9 weeks we will see your face.
The funniest part of all was when papa and I decided on Micaiah James
we had no idea that your grandpa had wanted to name dad's sisters that if they had been boys.
So Auntie Sabriah or Adriel would have been Micaiah if they were boys.
Haha. I guess you get to be the lucky one.
Your name means, "Who is like Yahweh?"
And your middle name is your great grandfather's name.

I can not wait to meet you.
And see the face that goes with this name.
Grow Strong Micaiah.